XXX Dreams

OK. so the good thing about sleeping with Ben, more details on this to follow, is that I was able to get a certain other schmuck out of my system. As they say in Spanish, un clavo saca otro clavo or one nail knocks out/ replaces another nail. I don't think they have a verb form of "to nail" in Spanish, so that makes the English translation of it even better and/ or more pervy. So after my first night with Ben, in which we slept together but didn't actually "do it," I had a dream that I saw Juan in a bar. And I told Juan, in all seriousness, "wow, I thought you were taller and cooler." I wonder what that dream symbolizes? Duh. I mean I really woke up feeling like Juan was not a big loss at all. Of course, the ideal would be not replacing one obsession with another. The ideal would be to not obsess over anyone. But you know what they say? una obsesión saca otra obsesión. At least, I say that. As of now...

The bad thing, of course, is that I can't stop thinking about Ben. Of course, I realize that my obsessions have more to do with me or a void I feel and less to do with the actual guy or nail. But in this case, I actually think I like this dude and we have stuff in common. I definitely have more in common with him than I do with anyone else I've been with recently. So at least maybe this is a step in the right direction.