breaking up isn't that hard to do, afterall

As loyal readers know, I spent much of yesterday, last night, and today (and the past few weeks, though you may not know that) fretting and obsessing over how and when to end a relationship I'm in. I promised I would keep my fans in the loop. So here is the loop. Won't you please jump is?

I finally went through with the breakup. She was a let less upset than I had expected. I guess shrinks are used to terminating therapy or whatever. But I was nervous because she is kind of bad at hiding her emotions (it's something we really should have worked on.) We talked about things, I told her about the "other woman." And 45 minutes and $200 later, we planned processing session part deux for next week.

I should apply these processing sessions to my other break ups. That actually would be really cool. I would tell him to come to my apartment and make him wait outside the door for a few minutes. Then I would open the door and let him in and we'd sit, though I'd make the couch available in case he felt more comfortable that way. And I'd check my watch, and 45 minutes later I would tell him it's a wrap and give him a bill.

I also realized one of the things that really bothered me was the enabling dynamic of our relationship. I realize now that I was supporting some of my shrink's unhealthy habit. More on this tomorrow.